Thursday, January 05, 2006

A very Pronoia week

Yep, this has been a great week at work. It’s especially weird, because it’s right after a holiday and usually it’s difficult to come back to full five-day weeks after having many days off.

We had the job description meeting (BZ, someone from HR and I) on Wednesday, actually. At the beginning of the meeting BZ apoligized to me for not saying one good thing at the review. Then we talked over each of the points I had rebutted in the written review. You would think I would feel satisfied and vindicated after that, but I didn’t, it felt awkward. I felt sorry for her and not one bit better about her apology. Well, maybe a little, as she also said I was a valuable member of the team blah blah blah, which was nice to hear. At the time I thought it was a bit like a parent making their child say, “I’m sorry” when they really aren’t a bit sorry.

But the rest of Wednesday and all of Thursday she really was pleasant and cooperative. It’s a good thing too, as my new job has me working very closely with her—as her assistant! This state of affairs which should have been a horror has actually been quite challenging and fun, for at least the day-and-a-half so far. I’ve done contracts and other legal things, a little writing (which I normally don’t do) and some other interesting and creative tasks. I’m actually looking forward to going in to work tomorrow because it’s been so interesting! It helps that it's a Friday and a payday, too, of course!

Had a couple more house showings and the agent said maybe there will be an offer, but haven’t heard anything yet. They are marketing this house as a normal house--wish I could show you the listing on it—and it’s not a regular house. So I’m supposing that many people think they are going to score a real deal on it because of the low price and then when they see it, they realize why it’s priced so low! It’s a cool place, in many ways and the land is beautiful, but it’s not a normal house with all the little comforts and amenities. Living here is like living in a rustic cabin and roughing it!

I sold another book through Amazon and mailed it out today. Tonight I sold a CD which I’ll have to mail tomorrow. Tonight I received the most awesome book that I’d ordered (used from Amazon!) in the mail, wish I could post huge parts of what I’ve read so far. It really reminds me of George Breed of Warrior Geezer maybe it’s really him under an alias? The book is Pronoia Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings by Rob Brezsny. Here is the blurb on the book, see what you think of it:

Glory in the Highest
from the book PRONOIA Is the Antidote for Paranoia: How the Whole World Is Conspiring to Shower You with Blessings
Thousands of things go right for you every day, beginning the moment you wake up. Through some magic you don’t fully understand, you’re still breathing and your heart is beating, even though you’ve been unconscious for many hours. The air is a mix of gases that’s just right for your body’s needs, as it was before you fell asleep.

You can see! Light of many colors floods into your eyes, registered by nerves that took God or evolution or some process millions of years to perfect. The interesting gift of these vivid hues comes to you courtesy of an unimaginably immense globe of fire, the sun, which continually detonates nuclear reactions in order to convert its body into light and heat and energy for your personal use.

Did you know that the sun is located at the precise distance from you to be of perfect service? If it were any closer, you’d fry, and if it were any further away, you’d freeze. Here’s another one of the sun’s benedictions: It appears to rise over the eastern horizon right on schedule every day, as it has since long before you were born.

Do you remember when you were born, by the way? It was a difficult miracle that involved many people who worked hard on your behalf. No less miraculous is the fact that you have continued to grow since then, with millions of new cells being born inside you to replace the old ones that die. All of this happens whether or not you ever think about it.

On this day, like almost every other, you have awoken inside a temperature-controlled shelter. You have a home! Your bed and pillow are soft and you’re covered by comfortable blankets. The electricity is turned on, as usual. Somehow, in ways you’re barely aware of, a massive power plant at an unknown distance from your home is transforming fuel into currents of electricity that reach you through mostly hidden conduits in the exact amounts you need, and all you have to do to control the flow is flick small switches with your fingers.

You can walk! Your legs work wonderfully well. Your heart circulates your blood all the way down to replenish the energy of the muscles in your feet and calves and thighs, and when the blood is depleted it finds its way back to your heart to be refreshed. This blessing recurs over and over again without stopping every hour of your life.

Your home is perhaps not a million-dollar palace, but it’s sturdy and gigantic compared to the typical domicile in every culture that has preceded you. The floors aren’t crumbling, and the walls and ceilings are holding up well, too. Doors open and close without trouble, and so do the windows. What skillful geniuses built this sanctuary for you? How and where did they learn their craft?

In your bathroom, the toilet is functioning perfectly, as are several other convenient devices. You have at your disposal soaps, creams, razors, clippers, tooth-cleaning accessories: a host of products that enhance your hygiene and appearance. You trust that unidentified scientists somewhere tested them to be sure they’re safe for you to use.

Amazingly, the water you need so much of comes out of your faucets in an even flow, with the volume you want, and either cold or hot as you desire. It’s pure and clean; you’re confident no parasites are lurking in it. There is someone somewhere making sure these boons will continue to arrive for you without interruption for as long as you require them.

Look at your hands. They’re astounding creations that allow you to carry out hundreds of tasks with great force and intricate grace. They relish the pleasure and privilege of touching thousands of different textures, and they’re beautiful.

In your closet are many clothes you like to wear. Who gathered the materials to make the fabrics they’re made of? Who imbued them with colors, and how did they do it? Who sewed them for you?

In your kitchen, appetizing food in secure packaging is waiting for you. Many people you’ve never met worked hard to grow it, process it, and get it to the store where you bought it. The bounty of tasty nourishment you get to choose from is unprecedented in the history of the world.

Your many appliances are working flawlessly. Despite the fact that they feed on electricity, which could kill you instantly if you touched it directly, you feel no fear that you’re in danger. Why? Your faith in the people who invented, designed, and produced these machines is impressive.

It’s as if there’s a benevolent conspiracy of unknown people that is tirelessly creating hundreds of useful things you like and need.

There’s more. Gravity is working exactly the way it always has, neither pulling on you with too much or too little force. How did that marvel ever come to be? By some prodigious, long-running accident? It doesn’t really matter, since it will continue to function with astounding efficiency whether or not you understand it.

Meanwhile, a trillion other elements of nature’s miraculous design are expressing themselves perfectly. Plants are growing, rivers are flowing, clouds are drifting, winds are blowing, animals are reproducing. The weather is an interesting blend of elements you’ve never before experienced in quite this combination. Though you may take it for granted, you relish the ever-shifting sensations of light and temperature as they interact with your body.

There’s more. You can smell odors and hear sounds and taste tastes, many of which are quite pleasing. You can think! You’re in possession of the extraordinary gift of self-awareness. You can feel feelings! Do you realize how improbably stupendous it is for you to have been blessed with that mysterious capacity? And get this: You can visualize an inexhaustible array of images, some of which represent things that don’t actually exist. How did you acquire this magical talent?

By some improbable series of coincidences or long-term divine plan, language has come into existence. Millions of people have collaborated for many centuries to cultivate a system for communication that you understand well. Speaking and reading give you great pleasure and a tremendous sense of power.

Do you want to go someplace that’s at a distance? You have a number of choices about what machines to use in order to get there. Whatever you decide—car, plane, bus, train, subway, ship, helicopter, or bike—you have confidence that it will work efficiently. Multitudes of people who are now dead devoted themselves to perfecting these modes of travel. Multitudes who are still alive devote themselves to ensuring that these benefits keep serving you.

Maybe you’re one of the hundreds of millions of people in the world who has the extraordinary privilege of owning a car. It’s a brilliant invention made by highly competent workers. Other skilled laborers put in long hours to extract oil from the ground or sea and turn it into fuel so you can use your car conveniently. The roads are drivable. Who paved them for you? The bridges you cross are potent feats of engineering. Do you realize how hard it was to fabricate them from scratch?

You’re aware that in the future shrinking oil reserves and global warming may impose limitations on your ability to use cars and planes and other machines to travel. But you also know that many smart and idealistic people are diligently striving to develop alternative fuels and protect the environment. And compared to how slow societies have been to understand their macrocosmic problems in the past, your culture is moving with unprecedented speed to recognize and respond to the crises spawned by its technologies.

As you travel, you might listen to music. Maybe you’ve got an MP3 player, a fantastic invention that has dramatically enhanced your ability to hear a stunning variety of engaging sounds at a low cost. Or maybe you have a radio. Through a process you can’t fathom, music and voices that originate at a distance from you have been converted into invisible waves that bounce off the ionosphere and down into your little machine, where they are transformed back into music and voices for you to enjoy.

Let’s say it’s 9:30 a.m. You’ve been awake for two hours, and a hundred things have already gone right for you. If three of those hundred things had not gone right—your toaster was broken, the hot water wasn’t hot enough, there was a stain on the pants you wanted to wear—you might feel that today the universe is against you, that your luck is bad, that nothing’s going right. And yet the fact is that the vast majority of everything is working with breathtaking efficiency and consistency. You would clearly be deluded to imagine that life is primarily an ordeal.

Well, hope you got this far, it’s a worthy read (the quote from the book, I mean!) what did you think of it?

Have a very Pronoia day!


Blogger happyandblue2 said...

Glad you had better days at work. And hope you get your house sold soon.
The book is good. The writer made me feel guilty for getting so angry about stupid little things..

9:27 PM  
Blogger Anvilcloud said...

That's really amazing when you break it all down like that.

10:49 PM  
Blogger dulciana said...

That passage reminds me of an elderly lady who was in the Alzheimer's unit of a nursing home with my grandmother. She was fairly lucid most of the time, and had every reason to be sad. She had no more family, no one visited her, she had Alzheimer's, and she was almost blind. But, she was always happy and positive when we saw her. She'd say, "I'm just so glad that I have these nice people to help me and I can still get around without a wheelchair." It's all in the way you look at things.

11:02 PM  
Blogger Red Hot Sexy Papa said...

Wow... that is one long long lonnnnng post lol

1:17 AM  
Blogger Magpie said...

wow her assistant, theres something to be said about keeping your enemies

hope today is just as interesting...

i will come back to read the extract, it is long...


2:38 AM  
Blogger An Extraordinary woman in a mediocre life said...

HAPPY NEW YEAR sweetie :)

btw, my blog url has changed, so now you can find me here:


5:30 AM  
Blogger Rainypete said...

Be grateful for what you have! Perfect, now all we have to do is find a way to get a copy of this book into the hands of every living being on the planet and we'll be set. So will Mr. Brezsny, but that's incidental.

6:35 AM  
Blogger Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

I'm glad to hear things are going better for you, PBS...:)

And that was an excellent read about Pronoia!!! It's SO true! :)

6:51 AM  
Blogger Grant said...

I'm glad to hear things are picking up for you.

10:09 AM  
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11:05 AM  
Blogger katie said...

Her assistant? Wow, that could be interesting. I hope you get an offer on the house soon.

1:41 PM  
Blogger deni said...

Glad things are going better for you at work, I hope they continue to improve.

And hope you get that offer for your house soon.

5:00 PM  

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