My foolish heart

Yesterday was a busy day at work, just like I had figured except we had TWO meetings, not just one. The deadline has finally passed, thank god, but now I will have people calling and E-mailing me to get in at the discount price! Sorry, too late! But I’m nice to them.

Had a strange phone call at work and it wasn’t work-related. Remember my post about the guy I had a six-year relationship with and we were even engaged? I hope you DON’T remember what I wrote as I’m taking a drastic 180 from what I said in that post. We’ve been just friends for the past many years, although we don’t see or even speak to each other very often anymore. He had a live-in girlfriend and he didn’t want to make her jealous even though there was no reason for her to be jealous. Well, to make a long story short, he didn’t mention her in the phone conversation and usually he does, a lot. And usually that would not affect me one way or the other, but I find myself hoping that they have broken up! How bad is that? And how foolish, too.

He’s invited me over to his farm to see his vegetables. The farm is a glorious place where I once dreamed of living. The soil is sandy, not like my clay and rocks and gardens grow like Eden there. There’s woods and a pond and many outbuildings including an interesting old barn. My son and I were invited last year and the invitation came from the both of them. He called her by my name about three times during the visit, which was embarrassing but we all just ignored it. I had to leave early because I was on that wicked 300-600 calorie per day diet and there was nothing at the BBQ that I could eat. He’s been the one who has wanted to get back together several times (not when living with his girlfriend, of course!) and I’ve been the standoffish one. Now he must have caught me at a bad time as I’m wondering….

We are still friends. We really enjoy each other’s company. The phone call turned into a long one (but I worked while talking) and it was like we had just seen each other. And the relationship (the six years we had it) was HOT hot hot, if you know what I mean.

Well, probably my timing is all off. Now that I think I might want him back, he’s probably still living with her. If that’s the case, I’m going to be awfully disappointed but will just drop it there. I’m not one to even try to break up other people’s relationships.

But he’s promised me some fresh vegetables from his acres of awesome gardens anyway! He still has a puppy that I gave him, it’s an old dog now but still remembers me. And former fiancé is great company, intelligent and witty. He doesn’t know it but I’ve judged later guys against him, my (once) almost perfect man! It will be good to see him again.

From my E-mail
Dumb Quotes

"Golden, Ripe, Boneless Bananas, 39 Cents A Pound." - Ad in the "Missoulian" by Orange Street Food Farm

"Sure there have been injuries and deaths in boxing -- but none of them serious."- Alan Minter, Boxer

"I think that the film Clueless was very deep. I think it was deep in the way that it was very light. I think lightness has to come from a very deep place if it's true lightness." - Alicia Silverstone, Actress

"This is no longer a slum neighborhood. I haven't heard of a Cubs fan being shot in a long time." - Anonymous Wrigley Field Neighbor, Chicago, IL

"During the scrimmage, Tarkanian paced the sideline with his hands in his pockets while biting his nails."- AP report describing Fresno State basketball coach Jerry Tarkanian

"Men, I want you just thinking of one word all season. One word and one word only: Super Bowl." - Bill Peterson, football coach

"The Internet is a great way to get on the net." - Bob Dole, Republican presidential candidate

"I get to go to lots of overseas places, like Canada."- Britney Spears, Pop Singer